Thursday, April 16, 2009

Almost back to normal

I've almost forgotten what it feels like to have a panic attack. However, I do remember that it's something that I never want to go through again. The most I have now are muscle spasms or tension headaches, apart from that I'm also learning how not to worry too much.

I've always been very grateful for what I have, but I don't think or say it often enough. Faith, gratitude and meditation have helped me get through this. Sometimes in our hurry to live life, we forget to slow down, take a deep breath and be present. I have a penchant for thinking about the future too much, planning, worrying all the time. So now I try to enjoy the present, not to think about the past or worry about the future too much. I've read some articles and books which made me realise that thinking too much about the past and future prevents you from enjoying the present - watching my son grow, spending time with hubby, long lazy dinners with my family - basically just concentrating completely on the work (or play!) at hand.